Sunday, July 27, 2008

It's soon?????

I remember back when Kate and I started planning on going to San Francisco many months ago, it seemed so far into the future. Now we leave tomorrow!!! We are going early to do some sightseeing first and then the conference starts on Wednesday.
Katie's nervous. I haven't told her yet - so don't say anything to her, but so am I!! Even though I went last year and had THE BEST TIME EVER, I'm nervous all over again.
I'm nervous about getting to the airport in time. The way things are planned, the shuttle bus leaves at 6:00 am and it's about a 2 hour drive to Detroit and my plane doesn't take off until 12:15. But what if something happens?
I'm worried about the actual flight. I'm not a big flyer. Last year when I went to Dallas was the first time I flew in 29 years. I know this because before the last time I flew was when Ron and I went to the Bahamas when Brent was 6 months old. He turned 30 last Tuesday. I don't like the take offs or the landings. I was telling Kate I'm taking a couple of books to reread - favourites I've read before because I know I'll be too nervous to be able to concentrate on something new.
I'm worried that Kate won't like me. We've be on-line buds and partners for months now and got along famously well, but what if it's different in person. I even had a dream she didn't like me.
I'm worried Rosie, another roomie won't like me. Wendy keeps telling her everyone loves me - but maybe she won't.
I'm NOT worried about Wendy 'cause we already shared a room and it was loads and loads of fun - even if she doesn't believe in soul mates and still hasn't read Ride The Fire (see I keep track of the oddest bits of minutia.)
I worry about making a fool out of myself in front of authors whose books I've adored. I came darn close last year when I shared an elevator with Elizabeth Hoyt and almost followed her back to her room. But I think we are allowed one silly fan girl moment. At least that's what I tell myself.
And I keep thinking up new things to be nervous about. If I keep it up, I'm going to be a wreck tomorrow!!
But the thing is - I think we are all nervous to one extent or another. It's normal to be nervous. We wouldn't be real if we weren't. So I'm going to acknowledge I'm scared as hell and then get past it.
At least I'll try.


Rosie said...

Kristie! *gasp* I love you already. I swear. What if YOU don't like ME? Huh? Yeah, did you see my comment on Kate's post?

Actually after the SoCal Blogger meets and meeting Nath & Ames I know we will hug and start talking books and that'll be all she wrote. Good times and memories for all.

Katie(babs) said...

I should have sent you a My Little Pony also. You can borrow mine ;)
Not liking you? PFFT!! :P
What if no one likes me? I am one strange puppy.

Stacy~ said...

Kristie, I totally get this! I worry about meeting some of my online friends and not having them like me either - maybe I'm too strange or too boring or too ugly. These crazy thoughts go through my mind. I would love to meet up with you guys, and I already know I'm going to like you even more in person :)

I'm rooming with someone I met online several years ago and we've met several times - she's been to Lori Foster's event and we were roomies at RWA in Atlanta 2 years ago, and we get along great. Thank God *g*

Take-offs make me nervous too, and I used to work for an airline and have flown several times, but I'm already obsessing over it.

Oh, and I'm leaving for SFO on Wed and leaving on Sun. Sooo looking forward to it.

Kristie (J) said...

Stacy - email me at and I'll send you my cell phone number so we can plan to meet each other :) It would be such a drag if we didn't get together since we will both be there at the same time!!
I'm staying until Sunday too. I leave around 11:00 am and because of all kinds of stuff (time difference, stopover in Indianapolis, 2 hour drive back from Detroit), I won't be pulling into my driveway until about 1:30 am - Monday morning!! Good thing Monday is a holiday here! I have a feeling I may be sleeping in late - then again maybe not - excitement and after effect may just keep me revved up. And since I don't have the common solution to after effect.......

Katie: Trust me everyone will love you!!

Rosie: Having met Cindy, Ames and Nath - and then later Wendy, Jane and Sybil - I know there is an instant connection - something non romance readers might not understand, but still we are a nervous group aren't we?

Wendy said...

In my defense I'm not reading much of anything at the moment. Seriously. I've read a whopping total of 2 books for the month of July. Yeah - two. So very, very sad.