It's my birthday today. I don't say this for birthday wishes but more to say it's another tough day, one of those hurdles to get through.
I had coffee with a friend this morning and the boys and Lisa and I are going out for dinner - and I picked an expensive one - they have Most Excellent prime rib, my favourite meal being the carnivore I am. So the day won't be completely sad, but still there is the most important person missing. When I drove to Starbucks where we were meeting for coffee, I drove past the ball diamond I drive by every day and it was full of kids playing ball and I couldn't help but think it wasn't fair that Ron wasn't here coaching.
My birthday often fell in the midst of playoffs and many a year we had to go out for dinner on a different night because there was a game he was coaching but I never minded. And I always told him he was lucky to have me for a wife because it wasn't every woman that didn't mind playing second fiddle to a ball game on her birthday. I was never sure if he saw that or not *g*.
The department I work in surprised me yesterday though. They had found out it was my birthday and had a cake for me. I was touched quite a bit by that. And one of the other women I work with bought me flowers too.
So there are still good things happening. It's hard though, not to have Ron here too.