The main reason I started this blog was to muse on romance books and romance related issues. I did add the etc for those occasional times I blog about something else. Today is an etc blog. As I mentioned earlier, I started a new job on Monday. I had been out of work since last November after working there for six years when the PTB (powers that be) and I had a mutual parting of the ways. The job itself was a disaster; I had been transferred to a different job over a year ago and it was the classic and difinitive case of the wrong type of person in the wrong type of job. However, I loved the atmosphere and I loved working with the people I worked with. I had a real struggle for a while after I left. On the one hand, every day when I woke up and realized that I no longer had to do the job, I mentally jumped for joy. I was still having serious nightmares about the job months later. Oh the relief I felt when I woke up and realized it was only a dream. On the other hand, I missed my coworkers dreadfully.
Now I am at a new job and things could not be more opposite. Trying to learn something new is always such a struggle. I’m exhausted when I get home from concentrating so hard.
Another thing that is drastically different is the loneliness factor. I had good friends at the old job. Our work stations were an open concept so that I could look up and smile and chat briefly any time of the day. Where I am now, the work stations are almost completely enclosed. It's Dilbert world. While the people seem friendly enough when I am introduced to them, I am eating my lunch alone or at my desk. By nature I am very quiet and shy so it’s very difficult for me to reach out to others. Once I get to know someone, I’m fine and can laugh and joke with them, but I can’t help feeling that my new coworkers must think I’m pretty boring. I’m not really. I can be heaps of fun when I’m relaxed.
Oh well, it’s only been two days. I know I need to give it a lot more time but
I MISS MY OLD FRIENDS. Change, I know, can be good. But sometimes it's just not fun.