Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Obladi, oblada, la la la la life goes on

The main reason I started this blog was to muse on romance books and romance related issues. I did add the etc for those occasional times I blog about something else. Today is an etc blog. As I mentioned earlier, I started a new job on Monday. I had been out of work since last November after working there for six years when the PTB (powers that be) and I had a mutual parting of the ways. The job itself was a disaster; I had been transferred to a different job over a year ago and it was the classic and difinitive case of the wrong type of person in the wrong type of job. However, I loved the atmosphere and I loved working with the people I worked with. I had a real struggle for a while after I left. On the one hand, every day when I woke up and realized that I no longer had to do the job, I mentally jumped for joy. I was still having serious nightmares about the job months later. Oh the relief I felt when I woke up and realized it was only a dream. On the other hand, I missed my coworkers dreadfully.
Now I am at a new job and things could not be more opposite. Trying to learn something new is always such a struggle. I’m exhausted when I get home from concentrating so hard.
Another thing that is drastically different is the loneliness factor. I had good friends at the old job. Our work stations were an open concept so that I could look up and smile and chat briefly any time of the day. Where I am now, the work stations are almost completely enclosed. It's Dilbert world. While the people seem friendly enough when I am introduced to them, I am eating my lunch alone or at my desk. By nature I am very quiet and shy so it’s very difficult for me to reach out to others. Once I get to know someone, I’m fine and can laugh and joke with them, but I can’t help feeling that my new coworkers must think I’m pretty boring. I’m not really. I can be heaps of fun when I’m relaxed.
Oh well, it’s only been two days. I know I need to give it a lot more time but
I MISS MY OLD FRIENDS. Change, I know, can be good. But sometimes it's just not fun.


Anonymous said...

Hi Kristy.
I'm middle aged to. Red Hat Society Woman !
I love your blog and will mention it on the linkpage at my new site.
I live in Holland and I have several websites on Romance Novels. Sorry you cannot read my Dutch weblog but maybe you like to look at the pictures.

This is my English site (under construction but growing fast)

Kristie (J) said...

I checked out your web site. It looks like it will be a fun place to visit. And I really wish I could read Dutch so I could read your blogs. I did like the book covers though. I wonder why they are so different in different countries. Only a couple of the covers are the same on both sides of the ocean. loved the cover for LH's Mr. Perfect. Way, way different than the one here.

Tess said...

Hi Kristie,

Congrats on the new job! But I know how you feel. It can take a while to get in with the crowd at a new one. Like you, I'm quiet and shy (when you first meet me *g*), so I find it hard to make new friends in that kind of environment. Are there any kind of social things at the office (birthday cakes etc) that might give you a chance to strike up a conversation?

Easier said than done (I know), but just a thought :-)